I’d be fooling you big time if I did not tell you I am having a hard time visualizing my success. I would be fooling you big time if I did not admit to you today that my creative process which so intricately lives within the organism we call Suzi Banks Baum, has led me to a field where I cannot see the way out, I cannot picture my desired outcomes, nor can I see that I am worthy or capable of venturing to the next higher ground.

I am not slipping back in to my own skin- the ‘me’ who was content to assist in other’s success, the ‘me’ that found ultimate satisfaction in being at home and unvoiced.

As my beloved friend Sandy told me on Sunday, there is no going back for me. I am playing bigger and moving to the next level of expression of my work in the world.

So, today, will you just sit with me not knowing what is next for ‘Out of the Mouths of Babes’? Or how that work will escalate the birthing of my book, Laundry Line Divine: A Wild Soul Book for Mothers? Or, how, as a full time Mom I can be present and engaged with my children and speaking in my full voice in the world?

Will you just sit with me here?

I am on retreat with a bevy of amazing women at Kripalu making collages and doing yoga and considering the impact of ‘Moon Salutation’ on my tender heart today.

Here is what I made today.

Karen is sitting with me here, her arm around my shoulder.
I am so well loved and cared for here.
I am completely grateful for my whole life.
And for putting myself in the way of transformation.

Time to get back to class.
Love,
S